The past few weeks have been a challenging season for us. Not that I can in any way say that we are suffering or that we have not been given immeasurably more than we could ever thank the Lord for. Yet this time of transition for us - finishing with AIA before moving on to Fellowship Bible Church has been challenging both spiritually and emotionally. In some ways going to be a Pastor has brought great feelings of unworthiness, inadequacy, and fears of insignificance. I also feel like "lame duck staff" with AIA with little left to contribute as I am "on the way out." This has been very tough on me yet I have seen the Lord at work in a real way. I have been touched afresh by God's abundant grace to sinners (of which I am both categorically and experientially qualified), trusting more deeply to find my adequacy in Christ, and have abandoned myself to be nothing so that God may rightfully be known as everything. I am off to a world where I will be "new staff", into the unknown, just hoping to have something to contribute. But HE is my portion and my song, so I will not fear, I will offer all that I am in service of His Glory - when I falter or succeed, his grace is my hope and refuge - there is no other way. ...

--------